What My 4 Month Old Taught Me
I don't think any parent fully understands the impact their child is going to have on their life. We all anticipate the change in routine, the lack of sleep, the diaper changing. We all instinctively want to protect, nourish, soothe, and encourage these tiny humans. There is growth and perseverance, and patience. Lots of patience. You're the same person, but yet so different.
Becoming a parent has been a life changing experience for me. Going into motherhood, I knew the obvious expectations. I understood the potential struggles and the uplifting joys. What I didn't understand was what would happen behind the scenes.
I've always been a planner. OCD just a tad. I always have a plan A, plan B, and plan C. I rarely make poor decisions because I strategically think things through. Always. If I have a problem, you can be sure I will find a solution. And this is the gist of how I run my life. It's not the spontaneous go-getter lifestyle, but it's comfortable and rewarding. I've always been like this, and thought I would always be like this. I knew having a child would change my life on the external side of things. My day to day routine would need revamping. But I never even considered the impact Baby Bird would make on my internal world. I feel like having a child has 'clean slated' me and I have this incredible opportunity to be the best version of myself. And not only as a mother, but as a fellow human being. This little 4 month old, has taught me to look at life differently. To appreciate the little things and to better understand unconditional love.
She has re-defined my life's purpose.
I love to learn and grow and better myself in any way that I can. I am persistent and determined, maybe a bit stubborn. But over the course of my entire life, I've never grown as much as I have in the last 4 months. My daughter has restructured my thinking. She has taught me patience. She has shown me the purest love - literally no strings attached. She has empowered me to drive myself to new extremes. To learn from every opportunity and to never take things for granted. My entire purpose has changed. I wake up in the morning and feel happy (and sometimes tired). I feel driven to accomplish my day. I have energy to workout and show her a healthy life. My love for Papa Bird has reached new heights as we show her a healthy marriage. I feel honoured to be the light of this girls life. And I want to embrace these changes and evolve. I want to live up to this heroic status. I need to.
I knew I would love my baby girl, but I never knew how much I would look up to her. She has shown me how to look at the world through a different lens - an unfiltered lens, and I am grateful. I can't wait to see the woman she grows into but more than anything I can't wait for her to see the woman I become. How did your little one redefine your life? Let me know in the comments down below.
- Mama Bird