Alone I'm Not Perfect But Together It Feels Like We’re Pretty Damn Close
A couple days ago I had a little bit of a meltdown moment. I was feeling that I wasn’t able to give 100% to all the loved ones (people and animals) in my life. These moments don’t happen too often with me, but when they do it truly is quite overwhelming. I’m usually the one picking people up, so my mind isn’t designed to process these intense emotions when it’s happening to me.
I was holding Baby Bird while Thor, Storm, and Mama Bird were all in the room and this overwhelming wave of emotion flooded over me. And I just started to cry (you should know I’m a pretty emotional dude). That feeling of thinking that I should be able to do better, I should have more time for, should show more love to, and in general just be better as a person for all of them, just hit me like a brick wall and I felt so defeated.
To obtain a better understanding of the intricacies of my mind, you should know that I am a little bit of a perfectionist and I HATE when I can’t complete a task to the standard I have set for myself. No matter what I’m doing, I feel as though it needs to be perfect and I don’t do so great when I can’t achieve that desired level of perfection. Whether its exercise, cleaning, decorating for Halloween, training the dogs, raising Baby Bird, being a great friend, or being a great Husband, I sometimes set a little too high of a standard.
Mama Bird seeing this random outpour of emotion was concerned and immediately came to my aid. She let me know that I was doing a great job and that there are going to be moments when it’s difficult. There will be mistakes that happen and all we can do is learn from them and try to be better. Most importantly we are a team and it’s ok to lean on one another when we need to.
I needed this reassurance. And I know it seems simple but sometimes you need someone close to you to tell you its all going to be ok before you believe it. Having Mama Bird there was crucial. Without her, I feel as though this hurdle would have been a lot harder to overcome.
The good thing about meltdowns is it’s a perfect situation to self-reflect and process any internalized emotions. The result? I felt IMMENSELY relieved afterwards and was able to clear my mind and completely reset. Why was it so hard? It was a growth moment for me. I know that it’s unreasonable to expect perfection from anyone including myself. I just have to give it my best, and when I am feeling overwhelmed I need to ask for help or be honest about how I am feeling. Alone I'm not perfect but together with Mama Bird, it feels like we’re pretty damn close.
- Papa Bird
Thumbnail Photo by Ashley Legg of First Glance Studios
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